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The Master Key Week 4 LeeOutLoud

I can feel it already. My mind is shifting and my energy is coming back because I am peeling away the layers of my old blueprint and finding my true self. It is in there! It has been simply covered up by years of doing what I am “supposed” to do and keeping the job I am “lucky” to have and not embracing my true talents. In reality, I have always known the greatness that is in here, i just let outside noise get in the way.  Today,  I am ready to show it.

My goal this week is to get my DMP together with my guide and with the help of my MASTERMIND tribe. I am listening in my car to the messages and the webinars and manifesting my chores/goals/PPNs/service. It is a little overwhelming getting all of the homework and activities done, but I do see that they build and connect. On Tuesday, I decided to go ALL IN. I had an epiphany!

I had an epiphany!

As I sat in the hotel meeting room with a number of smart people who have my same job;  it is job that many other people would LOVE to have; at the beach where other people would love to be, in a training for a drug that others would love to sell… All that I could think was BLAH BLAH BLAH. This is NOT me. And that IS OK!

Yes, it is a good company.

Yes, I have make good (could be better) money.

Yes, I have super benefits.

Why would I want to leave this?

Because it is not the best me. It is not me using my given talents and skills to create a life I love. I have known this for quite some time, but today I act.

I am ready to be the best ME that I can be and that may mean leaving this “good job” to find a great life. I appreciate the opportunity and the freedom that pharma sales have provided up to this point in my life. I earn my money, hit my goals, play well with others and build relevant relationships. And now…. I want to do this for me rather than a corporation.

My side hustle Live Green will no longer take the back seat to naps, job, excuses.

What a difference one phone call or one day can make. I realized today on the Mastermind Guide call, that I am not alone. Most people are confused as to what they want to be when they grow up. Many people continue to do the same things and expect different results. Although I really do not think I have much in common with those on my call, there are a few with whom I can relate and I can learn from all of them.

One big lesson I learned today from D was to love people through their misperceptions. Those who do not understand me do not need to leave my life, rather I need to love them through it and release them from having influence over me.

This is hard. I ain’t gonna lie!

The time commitment is minimal when you break it all down. I will make my service cards. I will show up when I commit to being somewhere. I will find the vivacious, effervescent, energetic person that is going to show up on my new blueprint.

Today I went to a naturopathic physician to check on my complete lack of energy and the fact that my get-up-and-go has got-up-and-went. His thoughts and ideas coupled with my work in the program will get me to my destination of over $20,000 per month in income, a Range Rover, a cottage with a mortgage of no more than $1500 per month, 3 vacations a year (2 overseas and 1 in the US), and financial freedom from any college payments for my kids.

The Master Key Week 2/3 LeeOutLoud

I started the Master Key with a BANG and then decided to take a last-minute trip to Barcelona with a friend. It was a last-minute decision to jump on a Travelocity deal and head to Spain, a country that I have wanted to visit for quite some time.

It almost seems like a dream now that I am back. Like a momentary lapse of reason and now I’m just back to reality. I like my reality. I love my kids and am happy about what I have been able to provide for them. They enjoy a good life, beautiful home, great schools and pretty much whatever they desire.

The issue is with me. The trip away was proof that I have the ability and resources to do what I want to do. I have certainly earned it. But upon return… i felt the same old sluggishness to participate in my job, jump out of bed or seize the day. Clearly, I am either depressed or simply functioning in a lifestyle that has become mundane because, as Les Brown says, I am working just hard enough to not get fired and they pay me just enough for me to not leave. I celebrate that I have over 10 years with Novo Nordisk. I have NEVER kept a job this long. But I know I am there due to “golden handcuffs” and FEAR.

When I was younger I took risks. I left good jobs to go do something fun like work at a hotel, run high-end events for very little money, thrive in the hospitality industry in DC. But after children, after you become responsible for another life, you start making decisions because you feel you HAVE to. And it is here that I am currently stuck.

I know I have it in me to be great. The feeling I got from the founders of Live Green when I joined that company…the accolades they gave me…the initial success of my affiliate lifestyle…was like the best drug ever created. I have always wanted THAT feeling.

So, the company was not quite ready to RUN toward success. I have continued with pharmaceuticals because it is the “right thing to do”. But now that I have laid around for a few months, felt depressed and decided to get off my ass and go to Barcelona; I know that I need excitement and change and a future to look forward to.

Writing my DMP was not hard. Getting it back and editing it will be the tough part. I know what I think I want…but now it is time to refine that and to make steps toward that ultimate goal. What a long, strange trip. Toward freedom and happiness.

here we go

The Master Key Week 1 w/ LeeOutLoud

 “When the student is ready, the teacher will appear,” is proving true in my life right now. I am so excited to have been invited by two new friends to join the Master Key program this Fall. I had zero Idea what I was getting into, but I do know that Vladka and Kenton are motivated, motivating, and dynamic people who make me feel good. They believe in me more than I believe in myself. They threw me a rope and I am going to hold on and follow them where they (and this course)lead me. Self-discovery, here I come.

Listening to the three intro videos provided me a clarity that I had not had in months. The language resonated. I was a little afraid to take the leap, but Kenton reminded me that I needed to sacrifice in order to grow. I know I need this NOW and I am stoked to get started and stay in the game.

My wakeup call was last week (September 17th 2018) when my daughter said, “Mom, I am so sick of seeing you lying in bed” and “you always cancel your plans, you never go out.” Wait, what? Who have I become over the past three months? Who sucked my energy, drive and positivity? Where is the girl who invested in a “side hustle” that was going to change the world? The one who stood on stage and motivated other people?

The girl lying in the king size bed is not the ME with whom I am familiar. Lately, my get up and go… got up and went. Menopause, turning 50, toxic people in my life? Screw these excuses.

LeeOutLoud will find her voice again!

I love motivational podcasts and learning. I love to read and to expand. The girl in the bed forgot how this feels. She forgot how endorphins are so important. She forgot how energy begets energy. She gained weight, lost her mojo and started down a road that was both unfamiliar and uncomfortable.

The Master Key is the perfect tool to help me correct course, map my future, reach deep inside and find myself. Over the past three months, I have built a habit of sloth, disinterest, and even started dipping my toe into the depression pool. STOP! NOW!

Listening to the week one audio in my car was a blessing. I am committed to the course and I know that everything I need is inside of me. I am going to get back on track, get my motor runnin’ and head out on the highway to find that girl I lost.

I keep my promises.

I will not make plans that I do not intend to keep.

I will listen to the lessons and use my windshield time to my advantage.

I will exercise EVERY DAY because I know that you never regret it.

Already, I feel the energy that was buried deep inside me. I am motivated for change. This is the ignition! No more Buddy Guy “The Thrill is Gone” … I’m looking for my new theme song and will use my mantra, “if you get confused, listen to the music play.” Thank you Jerry Garcia and thank you Vladka and Kenton and thank you Master Key!